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Friday, January 28, 2011  Heyeh ^^ Miss me all ? Not been updating my blog for the past few days . I'm sorry . Been buzy with life & alot of things been going on in my life . My life is changing for the better or worst ? Hmm , both i guess ? Err , so my last day atwork will be on the 7 of february ^^ Sukenyeee ^^ da tkya bgn pagy lagyyy . Boleyh tdo lambat & bgn lambat =D But , tk suke jgk cause no money . Damn ! Need to find new job fast tapyy nk keje mlm jek pls . & today on MC again . hehh ! I'm likee soooo the lazy to go work . WTH ! waste of time xia see the managers faces . Suck big time eyyhh! Tomorow also on MC . gerek kan ? Nie semua underground untk dpt MC . Org tertentu jek tau camane . haha ! WTH ! & I'm single & unavailable now . Peace* Someone help me to forget about hym . Yes , i forget every little thing about hym no use wanna remember hym . Eyh , he was never once part of me =D & I wanna talk about this new guy . I won't be telling hys name now . We just started to know each other but i have to admit something , everything about hym is the same as the previous one . pfft . Who cares , not all guys are the same kan ? So i hope this time no hurts or crying or even lies btwn us . Everything going smoothly for now . Only yesterday we had some misunderstanding . But it's nonsense . We settled it out & yerp , we are ok again . We have alot & alot of plans together . Just the two of us . uh huh . Sweeet kan ? I tau ^^ But , starting plan cock-up ,maybe we will be going out to town . Maybe meeting hym tomorow after his work ^^ Hmm , his nice , friendly , sweet & caring too . I suke ^^ & he knows what hys doing with full confidence in me or should i say us ? HAHAH ! nono ,we are not together . Don't misunderstand . We are still friends =P Hmm , what more should i say ? Err , yeaa . maybe for the time being we will just see what fates bring us too . Go with the flow . Sooo , keje mlm ape best eyy ? Hmm , kalau da keje mlm alek confirm best giler ^^ Pagy tdo kt umah , mlm keje & enjoy . Fuuyooo ! Da lame tau tk uat keje keje gyniee . Confirm swee ey plan ? But , mcm tkder life plak ? Cannot go out often & meet hym . Mangkok jek dier kalau dier tau . Huahaua ! K laa , nk start joget'joget . Update again when im free kay ? Love you all <3 Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Saturday, January 22, 2011  Heyeyh ^^ Today , was so badluck . I hate today cause everything i do don't seem right . & I miss hym . Maybe its true it will be hard to forget the person who once entered your life with good and bad memories together . & Goodluck for ahtoi too ^^ Last long =D Hmm , so .. Today i & hym still in bad terms . Not really talking to each other . He is trying hard to make me hate hym , try harder kay ? I won't easily hate that person , so GOODLUCK kay ? ^^ & matter of fact i succeed in making you hate me instead . Great =') So , yeaa . Went changi to have dinner with family . Seriusly , i started to eat more then before . & the things i don't even know how to eat now almost everything i eat -.- weird uh ? Tu laa , no worries . People who are close to me only say i eat alot never fat but my stomach getting bigger =/ haha =D Can laa . Hmm , after dinner went to eunos for someone wedding . & she's ard my age ^^ Nk kahwin jgk uh gynie . she is young & the husband is in reservist . Ok la tuu . I pun nk kawin jgk uh gynie , can ? ^^ Finaly , im going to work tomorow . pfft . I hate looking at the managers faces . Sucks big time . nbcb ! whatever , tomorow will be till 1pm . Bare with it =D K laa , wanna sleep . My eyes are tired & i wanna cry =( i miss you boo . Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Friday, January 21, 2011  Heyeyh ^^ Before i start posting anything , I miss hym . No matter how he hurt me & make me suffer , till now i still miss hym . So , it's over btwn me & hym . The last thing he told me was "Byee ! Kiter da tkder pape lagy" Yup , that's the only thing i remember now in my head . Partly , maybe it was my fault . My mind wasn't thinking straight ok . He lie to me xia , what you expect . Not once or twice kay ? It was more then what you think & all this while i can just keep quiet so just now i burst everything out & atleast that makes me feel better . Even though for the first time i cried infront of hym in public . Hmm ,People always say that second chance is to make things better . But , when i give hym a second chance he did it again cause he knew i never had the heart to leave hym . How long more must i keep quiet ? So , yea . Just now was the last of everything . & Now , i miss hym . SHYT ! Whatever it is , back to story . SOoo , today was on mc again ^^ Dpt 2 ari lagy , Suke skali saye =D Nk genapkan 1 minggu tapy tk kesampaian plak , mintk 3 days mc dari doctor tapy maty'maty dier nk kasi 2 ari jek . CB btol laa . saturday amek leave uh . pfft . So , lps amek mc , meet up with hym & blablablabal . Grandlink with yan , og , fish , kimi . Since , they were there i can't possibly cry at grandlink infront of them so tried to say strong tapy nyanyi semua lagy pedyh'pedyh . huak ! Finish ard 6+ , lek'lek jap then blablablablablabalbalbala . HOME ! & tady kt lua sblm alek da mkn macspicy tau . smpi umah mkn lagy . wah piang ! da jady mcm prangai dier xia skejap2 mkn & adr org tego perut wani besar -.- tk perlu kay . Aniwayy , now i buzy sikit nk kena editkan gmbr pekji . Bsok i update lagy okók ? Love you all . Bubbye <3 Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Wednesday, January 19, 2011  Hello ! Goodmorning People ! *Smilingwidely* Sooo , as usual today i was on MC again ^^ Sooo , i just wake up & switch on the comp . Go kitchen took Redbull & here i am updating my blog , drinking redbull , msging & *******. hehh ! Hmm , aniway maybe later on gonna get ready and im going to grandmama house .Soo long nvr go there & futhermore , im hungry . Woohoo ! Have i told you the story about the BRC outing on last friday ? It was perfect at first but the end was the worse thing ever -.- Sooo , let me start . On that friday i was working & it ends ard 6+ soo , after work got changed & took the bus back to pasir ris . & changed bus again at pasir ris took 89 & bussed down to changi . Man & that bytch fetch me at th bustop . Reached the place hugs & kisses to all & was running ard cause there was 2 black cats ard at the place . blablabla . Some of them were fishing . Then , after all that waited for thirah & izad to come . Man & that bytch went to pick them up so me & the guys waited at the pit . They started to sing song & i was getting sleepy -.- So , i rest at yan's lap while waiting for thirah to reach . Hmm , when they reached alraedy the party started . Each one of us 1 cup & biase jgk yan was the one to pour for all of us . Cheers & started to drink up . Me & thirah starts to story telling when the boys starts too . Drink & drink till me & thirah end up getting tipsy when we was about to end the whole bottle , its 10pm & that bytch need to go off . Tried to seduce thirah to stay until 10.30pm but think back since pandang tu bytch so we went off . While walking , bf kol me up & we have alittle argument . & Izad & me nearly have an argument . Luckily thirah stop me cause he was drunk . Bo lyn . So , at the bustop me & thirah do our stuff . took picture . HAA ! until we heeard izad started shouting to that bytch -.- At 1 point yes i was angry at izad . & at the next point i was angry at that bytch ok ? blablabla . Went to the next bustop cause izad walk off to the next bustop alone . Me & thirah was getting worried so we went to the next bustop too & found hym lying on the damn floor -.- ey , tk klakar kay 2 ppn tgh tipsy yg jage 1 lelaki mabok rabak . pfft . & that bytch was nt there to take care of hym but eventually she went off to take the bus when the bus arrive . NBCB ! Ey hhello ! that was ur ex that we are taking care of & you could just walked off like that . WTH ! So , me & izad tried to call for help & we did fould help from izad cuzin . Boi . So we waited for boi & aan to come down . They came by car & they sent me & thirah home too . But , when helping people there are something good in return ^^ Only me & thirah knows eyy ? Thirah "Abg besi or Abg driver "Wth xia papy . Buat malu jek . Reached home sleep & mummy smell something . haha ! shhh ! && the next day i was late to work thanks to that bytch . CB ! K laa . that was all . Even though somepart of the story was cut but the main point is still there . hehh ! k laa . my finger pnt aready . BYE . im single =.=' Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Tuesday, January 18, 2011  Heyeyeh ^^ Im back to update my blog agan ^^ Sooo , Before is startt on anything . First thing first . I got 2 days MC ! ^^ Let's make it 1 week please ? *mukesedyh* hahah ! I'm sosososo lazy wanna go work again . Grr ! So , at home sleep , eat & looking for a suitable job . Im gonna quit working at the hotel . Pfft . Laaa , the hotel also is closing soon . So ? If never quit now also still be looking for other jobs in months to come . No difference . So , here i am blogging , chatting with babygirl & searching for job . I tgh running nose xia . pfft . benci perh ! Grr ! Aniwayy , tadyy i was out of the house in the morning was thinking wanna go work but at the very last min when the bus arrive never naek but jalan back home . haha ! prangai xia . Atlast take mc & dpt for 2 days . Wohhoo ! Besok tkya bgn pagy . Sukenye aku ! Hmm , ape nk blog lagy eyy ? Err , im bored XD Nothing to do xia now . ermmm , fb pun da makin mendak . Nothing to do with facebook . Bsok nk go where eyy ? SBRC adr plan bsok kt tamp . Tapy drg lmbt plak . Nk jumpe pukul 5 . sape mau layan tu tyme tdo saye tau tk ? hehh ! Now , im getting more lazier sia . I notice i sleep alot for the past few days . Da bnyk tdo tkpe , bnyk mkn jgk . & Now , im hungry -.- Stop it xia prangai . Mkn bnyk pun tk leyh gemok . Kepale toot btol ! menagmok nie . hmmm , Saturday ape plan uh ? Hmm , nk go karaoke or kude kepang ? hmm , cannot decide . Da lame tk tgk kude kepang & ryndu plak go karaoke . hahaha ! k da . aku da tk tau ape nk blog . nk lari cari mkn plak . Byeeee ! Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Monday, January 17, 2011 Heyeyh ^^ I miss blogging =D Today , i get to blog cause im at home now . Got 1 dayy mc . Seriusly , im getting more & more lazy to work at the hotel . & Luckily , im at home now . It's raining . Nice to sleep ^^ Suke'suke ! & For the first time i'm gonna post picture of me & cyntaa ok ? Cause this post gonna be for cynta .  Happy 1 Monthsary cynta . Thanks for being so patience with me throughout this 1 month of being together . Although we have more downs in this relationship . Some part of our love story you does make me smile & i'm happy being by your syde . Our love story seems funny sometimes . When i looked back to the days when we are having arguments . Even how many times i thought of leeting you go . In the end , we are still together . I love you kepale babi . Lyke seriusly . please , don't change . Keep your promise . Im still here with you because i still love you . I just can't let you go cause i wanna be by your syde through this hard times that you are facing . & Futhermore , i promise you that i will wait for you . For the next few months . Our anniversary , i will be celebrating alone without you by my syde . It's sad but i will be strong to face this . Maybe , Allah wanna test me . Wanna see how strong am i . Don't ever let me go . You are my heartbeat & the other part of my life . & Nothing gonna stop me from loving you . ~ Kay done ! Post for cynta is done ! haha ! Back to story , First thing first i don't wanna go work today cause my eyes was very swollen this morning . Reason ; Crying =.=' Cyntaa , make me cry kay . & I hate it when it happens . I'm left with .. hmm .. 24 more days to spent with cynta & his leaving me again )': nk cryy please ? haiyaa . Valentine's day cynta not there with me . 2 monthsary & how many more mnths will be celebrating alone . Wa liao ! Tupid cynta ! Hujan lebat niee , best untk tdo eyy ? Nanty mlm kalau adr time i update lagy yee . Nk tdo dulu . Happy werking cynta <3 Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Wednesday, January 12, 2011  Heyeyh ^^ First thing first , today papy don't feel happy at all . I felt that since cynta is outsyde now everything changing . Is everything starting to fade away ? ='( I feel like crying now while typing about cyntaa . Since , the day he is outsyde i only get to spent time with hym for half a day . && i'm only left with less then 1 mth to be with hym & his leaving me again . People asking me to leave hym . Telling me hys not worth my tears & love . But , sorry . I just can't leave hym at times like these . Hys alone . I already make a promise to hym that i will stay & wait for hym no matter what & here i am trying to fulfill my promises . Even if he dosen't care , i will still hold on to my promises . No matter how much it gonna waste my tears or hurt me . Maybe what people say are true . I'm just being stupid to go through alot . He did not buy me things that i want . He was not there for me all the time . Excues is what i get from hym . Promises were broken . But i'm still with hym cause i love hym . & One thing that hys different frm others is he is patience towards me . No matter how bad i treated hym , he still hold on . No matter how many times i asked hym to leave , he still there . People try to poison me by telling me tales that i don't wanna hear . He is using me & stuffs . I tried to close my ears & ignore but i just can't sometimes what they say & what i see from you is the same . Haishh ! I don't wanna say anything much . It's hurting me more & more . I'm trying to be strong here . & if you think you do not need me then please leave me & don't put more hurt on me . & if you really do need me then treasure me like how u use to . you have changed cyntaa . I still love you =( Labels: Your Papylon Senoras 3 Day .
Tuesday, January 11, 2011  Heyeyh ^^ Above is the picture of me & my ladies =D Hmm , Guess what ? Cyntaa , is out aready . This morning he called me & i was really surprise . The happiness i felt was amazing & guess what ? I cried again . Hehh ! Waliao ! miss cynta so much ok . So , after work meet cynta . He came down to pasir ris . He needs to ge a hair cut & most of the shops were close early . Idiot . Penat tau jln'jln carik kedai rambut . At last went to ws & he had his hair cut at Sri Nada or what . Cyntaa , have to work for 1 mth . & that means not much time to spent together , no more late night phonecalls & no more meeting after work so often . I'm missing the old times i have with cynta . Nk cry again pls . I felt different now . I don't want anything to fade away pls . I love cynta , much . I hope i'm strong enough to go through all this . Cyntaa , already promise me that this gonna be the last time . I love you bhy . I will wait no matter what happens . Hope i get to spent time with bhy before i be left alone again . 1 month & that is all i'm left with )': haishh ! I guess Allah wanna test my patience in this relationship with cynta . I can do it . Insyallah . K laa . Since cynta sleep already might as well i sleep too . Goodnight cynta & goodnight friends . Labels: Your Papylon Senoras 2nd day .
Sunday, January 9, 2011  Heeyeyh ^^ Today i'm not using my hp to update my blog . Since i was editing my picture with cynta . I update my blog as well . I'm not gonna update anything on fb abt cynta . Maybe if i post also won't be like yesterday and this morning . Every post is only for cynta =D But , this blog i be updating for cynta . I'm gonna tell hym honestly what i did every single day . Since , i can't text hym or even call hym , my phone went silent the whole day . Hmm . Second day aready . I miss cynta damn much . Today , i wake up ard 12+ . shower & siap went to jb with mummy , daddy & grandmama . Cyntaa , i can't hide anything frm them . They know about you aready . They hope you will change & no more running away frm reality . Pls cynta , for my sake . This gonna be the last time ok ? Face it . You will still need to do it sooner or later . Make it the last time . Aniwayy , went jb & was back in sg by 5 or 6 plus not mistaken . Reach home check fb for awhile & cynta , everyone ask me to be strong to face this & don't be sad . I'm still trying . It's only for 2 days and im still having difficulty to sleep at night . Mummy say , i'm going to be crazy soon . You know why ? Just now while waiting for sister to finish work . Mummy , daddy , grandma & me was sitting at mac eating ice cream . I was making funny faces at grandmam to make myself occupied & happy . When i was laughing suddenly my heart felt like crying & tears rolled down non-stop . I still pretend to laugh when actually i wanted to cry . Come back quick , pls ? Be by my syde again ? I really need you . Hmm , ohh yar . I reach home & played comp for awhile & went to sleep . Mummy wake me up & went for our dinner at Downtowneast . That's all . This is what i did the whole day when im not around , Cyntaa , tomorow is monday & ur mummy told me tomorow you will know the result . I'm scared . What if it's for a very long time ? What if you gonna forget me ? What if you will leave me ? Don't do it pls . Im proving to everyone that im gonna wait for you cause why i seriusly love you . You did change my life boo . Thanks . I'm not turning my back on you when you need me at times like this . I promise . && Both your sister as me to wait for you . I told them i will . So here i am , still waiting for you . Cynta , you promise me that you gonna be celebrating my bdae together again this year . Make sure you keep your promise ? I love you boo . Let's make it everyday a meaningful day for us . & Let's make it officcially special on 171210 <3 Labels: Your Papylon Senoras 1st day );
Heyeyh ! From today onwards i have to try and update my blog even if im sooo tired , i will still update . I want cynta what i have been doing every single day without having hym by my sydeee . No lies . All truth . Let's start . Sooo , yeaa . It's 3.40am . I just came back frm my family chalet at downtowneast . I'm veryvery tired . I tried to keep myself occupied the whole day . Trying not to be alone so i will not keep thinking abt cyntaa and cryy . I miss cynta soo much ); Can all this be a dream pls ? and when i wake up cyntaa is still here with me . Cynta left me just like that no last words . I'm afraid . I'm afraid cyntaa won't remember me . I'm afraid i won't be strong enuf to face all this alone . Cynta was always there by my syde no matter what but now ? I have no one . Cyntaa , i'm sorry for all the mistake i did towards you . I was never a good gf . Alot of things you caught me red-handed but still forgive me and stayed with me . You kept your promise of not breaking up with me no matter what and no matter how much i did hurt you , you will still hold on tight to this relationship . Babyboo , you were the best boyfriend i ever had . I'm proud to have you . I regret not telling you how much you mean to me , this relationship and how much i love you . I will wait for you . I will try my very best to be a very good girl . Won't hurt you anymore . I promise . I miss you cynta . I'm crying now , don't you want to tell me to stop crying ? Who should i joke and argue around with now ? No one . Cyntaa , i want you here now . Please ! Don't leave me cann ? I wanna meet you now and hug you . I wanna hug you real tight and telling you i love you so much bhy . It felt different today . Only for 1 dayy and i really felt different . No msges or call from you . No one to give me a goodnight msg now or even late night calls too . Andand , there is no one to make me feel jelez lyke you did . Come back soon ok ? Don't leaave me for too long . I love you and only you cyntaa . No one will win my heart like you did and it's safe with you now . I'll wait no matter what . Goodnight and sweetdream cynta . mwacks ! )'; Monday, January 3, 2011  Heyeyh ^^ Soo , yeaa .. This was the people who celebrated countdown with me ^^ Just us & i had an awesome time . Itw as sooo fune . Seriusly , You people should join us ^^ HAHAHAHA !! Other pictures i will upload soon on fb . NK see , go see at fb ok ? Aniway , as i promise im gonna post what happen during countdown . Here i go . On that day i was werking & ends at 5+ so change & took cab home . Reach home told my sister to wake me up at 6.30 cause meeting the rest at 8 . So i slept for abt half & hr ? yeay ! Wake up & get ready . Went out took bus 89 to sengkang & took the train to Harbourfront . Thot , we gonna be late but nope we are early since got my pay & i was hungry went to eat mac with sister . Was just about to eat then chanbby called say they reach aready . So , mkn lincah2 punye & meet them at the bus interchange . Once i reach there i was stunned when i saw ahtoi . Then called up chan & thirah bby to pick me up . Walked pass them & my heart beating really fast . Idk why . Then , thirah friends was also there , Man , yan , Og and naz arrive later . Blablablablabla . Went to pahlawan beach . Search for a nice spot & there we go . Laughing & chatting . yan bought some drinks & he paid for everything . Thanks yan ^^ Then there this one part i cried . I'm sorry . I dont even know why im crying in the first place . I miss you , maybe ? HAHA ^^ It's over . Forget it . Aniway , so we start to drink . Me & thirahbby was the survivor for the girls on that day . The rest was down inlcuding chan cuzin i think ika . HAHA ! Songsang but fun . Alot of things happen . Most of the pictures was me & yan . hahah ! sorry hor . Abeyh krg satu'satu buze so me & yan took pictures uh , hehh ! Ohhh , chan & zick was ok . Things change after that day . Woohoo ! I suke ^^ & we went off frm sentosa ard 5+ . Muke satu2 ngantok . HUhu ! Gerek make new friends . I suke . NN make new friends lagyy ^^ Kay laa . I pnt type . Hehh ! So the story somthig like that laa . Tkya nk go in details nanty adr org kepo . Huak ! Kay laa . bubbbeyyyee Labels: Your Papylon Senoras Sunday, January 2, 2011
heyeyh ^^ Today i b blogging using laptop . Daddy using comp . SEBOK . pfft . Aiwayy , i just came back from bedok with family . Tadyy pagy wake up at 12 plus ke 1 plus , cannot remember but i know in twn i gt wake up and reply people msges . AHAHA ! aniwayy , wake up , mandy & all . Me and mummy go downtown kfc to buy for honey's lunch food . Then pass the food to her & we went off to take 89 to Hougang . My aunty went for treatment & touch-up , kak girl rebonding , mummy touch-up , cuzzin -cut hair and lastly me treatment . Now my hair is soft , nice & the curl is in order . i loike^^ Then , ard 6 plus went to bedok to have our dinner . After dinner nk go walk2 ard at bedok & go to the new shopping centre . Tgh jln & play cuzin hp then suddenly , satu org pgl 'wani' pusing & i saw my ex friend during the days at airport. Rynduu oii . Bbl jap & went off . Walk& walk & i bought new contact lens . Blue colour . =D Then otw , walking back to mac . Was walking alone then another person call my name . This time not just wani but My full name Hazwani . WTH ! terperanjat eyy? Awww , i miss you kawan lame . Meet soon ok ? ^^ Then , blablbalblabalabal . That's it for today . Eve of countdown . I have a blast . Before i start . I & thirah make it in making things better btwn chan & zick . All the best you both <3 Reach harbourfront ard 8plus . Walk & walk then meet the rest at bus inter . There was Honey , chan , thirah , me , man , nas , yan , og & ika . But ika reach at the later part . All the tickets yan blanje . Dier bayar untk semua . Sng punye bbl all the things that was spent on that day was on yan . He paid for everything . Thanks yan . Reach sentosa find a good place & we sat there till morning . Yerp , all the way we were together . Laughing & having a good time ^^ In btween somethings happen . But , at the end of every problems we are still together as one & having fun . Gambar i will upload some here and the rest will be in fb yee =D We drank 1 vodka & 1 chivas . Thirah & me was the survivor for the girls . The rest were down rabak . Me and thiras need to take care of then . Including 1 unknown guy who was drunk . sya i think hys name . Drunk and ask for number . funny guy . Hmm , in details what happen on that day . Tommorow i will . Today im still feeling tired . & im gonna fall sick soon . Pfft . SBRC , jum outing lagy , sat perh ? ^^ Miss you & love you people <3 Adios ! |
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